Tuesday, November 21, 2006
been thinking lately that i've been doing things which i may don't seems to like or interested in, but just as to please others, i'll do it. Out of sudden, i just felt that it ain't my life anymore.. Been doing things that i don't like, i don't enjoy, i don't love... Or is it i'm fated to do so? Been surrendering my life to fate, leaving everything to fate. Happiness is already not important to me, like what i said, i do what i don't like but just as to please others i'll do it no matter how hard it is.
What i wanna say is.. have a dream in your life guys. Don't end up like me, dreamless, goaless. I really like have nothing now, i don't own anything. People who cares about mi will ask mi to go think and think, think ahead for my future, seriously. You all think i've never done that before? I'm like at the dead end already, i am so totally LOST. The very one person i need isn't there for mi anymore, the one who's the best to me, the one who i think could help mi solve anything at any situation. Sad but true, those times when we were together i really regretted not treasuring it like the only one tree in the whole world, the tree which gives mi oxygen.
Like everybody, at this time i do really need a shore to lean on. A shore for mi to be washed up from the sea which i've been drifting.
EMO EMO EMO
Tomorrow match against Victoria Jc has been postphone to next tuesday, damn.. This saturday is Hai Sing first ever alumni dinner, Miss Seah task mi to find cake for the dinner. Tried decorating the surface but its like. Quite expensive if i get awfully chocolate. hahhaah Then sunday volleyball prize presentation, which is also Ignatius's 14 birthday. I've already draw out 3 cakes deco to let Miss Seah pick le, not really that nice cause i didn't try, i gave it all i have. (=!
What i wanna say is.. have a dream in your life guys. Don't end up like me, dreamless, goaless. I really like have nothing now, i don't own anything. People who cares about mi will ask mi to go think and think, think ahead for my future, seriously. You all think i've never done that before? I'm like at the dead end already, i am so totally LOST. The very one person i need isn't there for mi anymore, the one who's the best to me, the one who i think could help mi solve anything at any situation. Sad but true, those times when we were together i really regretted not treasuring it like the only one tree in the whole world, the tree which gives mi oxygen.
Like everybody, at this time i do really need a shore to lean on. A shore for mi to be washed up from the sea which i've been drifting.
EMO EMO EMO
Tomorrow match against Victoria Jc has been postphone to next tuesday, damn.. This saturday is Hai Sing first ever alumni dinner, Miss Seah task mi to find cake for the dinner. Tried decorating the surface but its like. Quite expensive if i get awfully chocolate. hahhaah Then sunday volleyball prize presentation, which is also Ignatius's 14 birthday. I've already draw out 3 cakes deco to let Miss Seah pick le, not really that nice cause i didn't try, i gave it all i have. (=!
what we could have been, Tuesday, November 21, 2006.
